early days/mixed archive

An Evening of Passing
12 Sept 2003

Lying here nightfall passed long since
Your precious heartbeat next to mine
Precious breaths from your sleeping soul
So sweetly you lie in dreams of peace
Waking moment your eyes awaken mine
Your fingers now graze across my face
Rose petal’s caress, your skin so soft

Another Day Goes By…
january 24, 2002

Where are you today?
I think not too far away.
I miss your beautiful eyes,
And today is the day I realized,
How much you really mean to me,
And how happy I am to be,
With you because you are so wonderful,
Amazing in every way, couldn’t be more beautiful.

Another day goes by without seeing,
The smile that lights up my world.
Another day goes by when you are,
All that can go through my mind.

If I could measure how sweet you are,
It would outnumber all of the stars.
My soul is rested; my soul is at ease,
When you are by my side, letting me be me.
Don’t know if you care about these words,
Or if they mean a thing in your world.
At night, I lose sleep thinking of you,
And in the morning you grace me too.

*Beautiful (Just A Smile)
feb. 15 2002

My heart just melts when I get close to you,
So amazing, that's all you are-so beautiful.
It is thru your eyes that I can see your soul,
A portrait so perfect no one can behold.
It's so clear that we are not meant to be,
But it's still your radiant face that I see.

All it takes is just a smile, to make my day,
A living proof that Heaven's not too faraway...

Day after day and week after week,
It's your heart I look for, your will I seek.
You are such a treasure so I try and I try,
And it's me you ignore, my every action you deny.
You made me cry thru your audacity,
But still it's your radiant face that I see.

All it takes is just a smile, to make my day,
A living proof that Heaven's not too faraway...

My heart grows cold from day to day,
I feel in every, you are pushing me away.
You are so special to me, that’s why I need,
To have you by my side, so that I can succeed.
Soon, I will disappear and fade into the sun,
But for now I will stay and know that you are lovely.

Breathe
November 15 2002

Close your eyes, just fall asleep
Rest in my arms in tender sleep
Do not stray too far tonight
Return to me in morning's light
It's this night your eyes I miss
The way you smile, the way you kiss
It's hard for me to believe in you
To see how you are so beautiful
Lying here under the moon
Waiting for this girl, my heart to consume
All across the world for her I'd chase
Never our moments to count as waste
Every breath hoping it's true
To wake up and to find you
Every day knowing it's true
That someday I will find you

Eternity

2 April 2003

As she makes her way
Into the light of day
She gazes out through eyes
Of blue coloured skies
Her hair floats softly
In the wind passing by
The radiance of the sun shining
Upon her hair of gold
My breath is taken away
As time begins to sway
With beauty of an angel above
She slowly comes unto me
Scent of lilies and rose twist through the air
So sweetly she drifts without a care
With every breath from her lips
Her radiance continues to grow
With charm she whispers words
Of peace and love to me
How I wish to hold her
In my arms for all eternity
A moment with her is but
A breath of Heaven’s light

Here Alone
Jan 5,01

I sit here alone,
In my room at home.
I want to hear you talk,
Next to you, I want to walk.
The words I say are true,
I like what I see in you.
I see you know and then,
When I don’t I pretend.
I am surprised this is going on so long,
But with you I am along.
I wish I could see you tonite,
And let you know everything’s all right.
I am glad you are a gem,
Along with being a friend.
Wish upon a star, it might come true.
I don’t need to, I have you.
I don’t care if we do nothing,
Being with you is everything.
God knows you are the one,
Anytime with you is fun.

I Don’t Know
Dec 11,00

I don’t know what you expect from me,
But I will be the best I can be.
As I get to know you,
I will be sure to stay true and protect you.

I will give you all my love,
Be as gentle as a dove.
I want you to know, I like the way you act,
You are very special, and that’s a fact.

Don’t change to get fame or money,
To see you different, I would be lonely.
You are as great as can be,
If I could wish, you I would be.

I Mean Each Word
Dec 14, 2000

My thoughts drift like clouds in the sky,
Of all the things I do and questions why.
I retain some facts along with knowledge,
Some I remember, others off the edge.

Priority is placed on certain information that’s on top,
One day, it’ll all go and I won’t remember I’ve forgot.
I think of you and who you are,
Look into the sky, wish upon a star.

If only I could understand everything,
Know what to this world I could bring.
I’d go to great lengths to please you,
Bring you from miserable to the girl I knew.

I’m not perfect; sometimes I don’t know what to say,
Really interested in every one of your days.
You don’t realize how I care,
Never would I give you a blank stare!

Every word that comes from your lips,
Is like a treasure and a gift.
I long to really know you,
I want to know all that is true.

If you’re ever in danger,
I’ll never be a stranger.
Dark days may come,
But don’t just give up and run.

We can work it out,
Talk about every single doubt.
Tell me your every concern,
I long to listen and to learn.

I want to be important to you,
Everything I do is sincere and true.
I don’t make up things to say,
I mean every word, each and every day.

In Your Arms
And I don’t wanna be without you
It’s not good-I shouldn’t be this blue
But I don’t wanna without you
Yes I should-wanna be right there…in your arms
Where no one can take me away…in your arms
No place I wanna stay but…in your arms
Until I’m taken away…in your arms

Jewel of Heaven
Nov 4 2002

She coloured with blonde hair stands at the door
Watching and watching as the hours pass
With face fair and rose cheeks she has
The glory of herself sustained
As if an angel sent from heaven
Her laughter and smiles bring forth cheer and joy
My heart cries out-how I desire to look into those eyes
How I envy the lover of her soul
I as a slave, she as my captor
I can only look upon her with love
Her heart I will claim for mine own
Those blossom lips I will taste
And the jewel of heaven I will pleasure


Just For You
Dec 12,00

I want to let you know,
I hope your love will always show.
In the good time and the bad,
And even when you’re sad.

As I wait for you to call,
I think about it all.
Four weeks ago we met,
Another one has just start to crept.

In my mind I see your face,
Just to see it the world I would chase.
I like you the best,
Because you aren’t like the rest.

The way you say you want to go,
Is rapidly starting to show.
I hope the old things go with ease,
And the things you want come with the breeze.

When I start going places with you,
I hope my reasons always stay true.
Going back to my homework,
I promise to you I’ll never be a jerk.

*Midnight Heavens*
Feb 20 03

Far past the oceans
The moonlit seas
Past coloured skies
Of darkness' light
Of midnight heavens
Among the celestial wonders
Across an echoless void
In silence still she rests
Into a world of perfection
Where her spirit resides
An age of beauty defined
Through the life of one
Precious whispers of peace
Enstilled in her heart
Thousand voices of hope
Perfected by every word
Echoing from her lips
Heaven's daughter of
Whom great favor abides
Radiant angel of light
O beautiful soul you are

My Everything
30 Apr 03

I just need a girl with a pretty smile
And she’ll mean the world to me
I’ve been waiting here for awhile
But love doesn’t come for free
I want to love, I want to care
I want to hold her in my heart
Angel, godsend fallen from above
When I find her we never will part
Can she open her eyes and look for me
Or will I go on alone still searching?
Let me hold your heart and love you girl
And I’ll give you my everything

Please Look Back
Jan.10.01

I look into the glassy sea of night,
Within it I see sparkling stars.
I also see a bright moon, encompassed.
Above all, I see beauty in it all.

Inside the moon, I see you standing,
You are standing there calling to me.
The words you speak are whispered softly,
And I don’t know what your reason is.

But seeing your face lights up my world,
My heart skips a beat as my eyes reach yours.
Silent thoughts of you slip by,
I will see you forever in my mind.

You turn as if to go but look back,
Please look back on me, don’t leave.
I need you to stay and care for me.
Need your loving eyes fixed upon me.

You wave good-bye and blow a kiss,
I believe this is our sad farewell.
May I be forever special in your mind.
And a great memory, eternally saved.


Sweet Dreams(2002c)
Aug2402
And as I fall into this sleep
Dreams of you this night I keep
Staring into your green eyes
Into that world I feel alive
Far above that life I’ve past
Here forever am I to last
Among the place where I met you
For that is where I found beautiful
That word defined in just one soul
A single wish for you to hold
To give you love from my heart
And begin a road I’ve longed to start
Stars now twinkle in shards of space
A life without you counted a waste
All I long for is you in each breath
To be the one whose dreams I’ll protect
I’ll give you the stars and name them for you
Because I’ve found the beauty inside you true

The Embodiment of Truth
+ Mar: 28: 02
If I wished upon a star,
I think you know what I’d wish for.
You are so special and so kind,
In you I can find peace of mind.
What’s to be said of a girl like you?
Not a single complaint or word not true.
Beautiful in every single way,
Captivated, awestruck with nothing to say.
The sun is rising while I rise too,
So much to be said of a girl so true.
I get this feeling when I see your face-
Your burning desire for your endless faith.
May God grant you a wonderful life,
You are a piece of Heaven to rid me of strife.
I cannot express exactly how I feel,
But I am certain it is for real.
While I pursue, you run away,
Never catching up, never going away.

I need you because of what you have inside,
Your desire of integrity, for what is right.
Don’t ever change a thing about you,
Because in you I find the embodiment of truth.
Something in the way I see,
Allows me to see only beauty.
From inside to outside you got it all,
I’d be there if you’d answer my call.
I can’t imagine what it’s like for you,
To live this way-so holy and true.
Goodnite, rest your head for the night,
And don’t forget the stars so bright.
The moon will look down upon you,
God smiles at your righteous attempts too.
I’ll be thinking of you forever,
From the outside until never.
Never leaving just watching your eyes,
Waiting for it to dawn on me and realize.
Watching from a distance at what I’ll never have,
At a girl of love, who never gets sad.

The Girl
Dec 5,00

There is a girl I talked to on the Internet,
Her name is a treasure and I'm really glad we met.
I see her once a week, which is a treat.
We talk from time to time and she is sweet.
I don’t know her that well yet
But soon we will be good friends and she I will never forget.
She is really nice and very deep,
Not perfect but not way off course,
Because people are humans of course.

When I call her we talk about whatever she wants.
She is not rude or conceited and never flaunts.
I know she is dependable and true,
Even when everything is blue.

Everything she wears is perfectly matched,
No there aren't any strings attached.
So to say good night,
I hope we will never fight.

I close my eyes and pray,
Hope that we will be together someday.
Everything I say is true about her,
She will be my girl.

I wish she would be near all the time,
I would pay hundreds of dimes.
To think how it would be,
Just think, her and me!

The Lost Poem
January 5, 2001

Thinking about the things you say,
The smile on your face.
Talking and sitting every day,
Letting you in my space.
I enjoy the warmth of your friendship,
And the ease that you bring.
Don’t know when everything will dip,
Just sit back, and enjoy you sing.
Confused about how I feel about you,
Don’t know really where we stand.
Lately nothing’s changed, nothing’s new.
Makes me happy when you reach for my hand.
Are you confused with all of this?
Or do you know what’s going on?
Doesn’t matter, next year you’ll I’ll miss.
Do you want me to stay or be gone?
There’s a time for everything,
That I know.
I like the fun you bring,
But what should I show?

Time Stands Still With You
Dec 17, 2001

It’s just a feeling that I get,
So strong I can’t just forget,
Has do with the wonder of you,
To make me question dreams from truth.

Feelings of happiness not dread, to be with you,
Someday maybe I’ll hold you tight-let it be true.
Your face shines with a beauty that won’t fade,
Everyday is a help to the decisions to be made.

Time stands still, doesn’t move at all,
Every second is an eternity-so true!
So please let me spend it with you.

I need you here with me, maybe small now,
But given time, it’ll grow somehow.
The thoughts I’ve had keep growing inside,
Away the boy of yesterday, not sorry he died.

Was just a whipped little fool,
Got my own conditions, my own rule.
Need you now and forever, whatever the cost,
I’ll wait till the time comes, without you, I’d be lost.

Little voice in my head, angel on my shoulder,
Tells me my direction is as straight as can be.
Maybe I’ll sleep on the sidewalk,
Maybe I’ll wait a lifetime or two…

Time stands still, doesn’t move at all,
Every second is an eternity-so true!
So please let me spend it with you.

I used to hang like a prisoner,
Now I am the king, the emperor.
I live for today, for the moment, for now,
All I want from you is a maybe somehow…


To Love
June 21, 2001

It’s hard to love when they hate,
It’s hard to love during debate.
It’s difficult to love when you get hurt,
It’s difficult to love when you feel like dirt.
It’s tough to love when you always lose,
It’s tough to love when you are always the fool.

It’s easy to love when things are fine,
It’s easy to love with nothing on the line.
It’s simple to love when they love back,
It’s simple to love with no attack.
It’s perfect to love when times are right,
It’s perfect to love when they’re in sight.

Wings To Fly
Jan 17 2003

Time has passed and gone away
Now in this game it's much too late
Thought I could just say goodbye
To take up my wings and fly
This burden still holds me down
Lying lifeless upon the ground

Seems all my strength has ceased
Seems I am no one counted least
Who i am and who you are
Distance between is much too far

Building bridges to burn down
Emptiness now takes my hand
How I long to ease the pain
To forget and start again
Uneasiness slowly sets in
Again to start-begin the end

Seems all my strength has ceased
Seems I am no one counted least
Who i am and who you are
Distance between is much too far

Trying and trying such countless hours
Clipped of my wings and rendered of power
Why does pride have to be the price
Of forgiveness to be sacrificed?
And my love, I've run so far
Distance between...much too far